October 2023

I find myself recording all the time. Like I always do, like I always have been. But I don’t do anything with it, and even when I do make my vlogs it’s in such rare occurrence, too far and in between. Not that there’s anything wrong with that. There’s nothing that says I have to do anything, record anything, or document anything. But I want to. I don’t want to forget the things I do in my life, both exciting and mundane. Plus I’m hoping that documenting my life, life with James will motivate me to do more. Not only on my own, but with James, and everyone else in my life. It’s hard getting out of my comfort zone though. It’s hard getting past my own insecurities. Moving past my own mental hurdles. But I want to do it, I need to do it. I’ve missed so much in the life that I had with Sarah, I don’t want to do that in my next relationship, I don’t want to do that with James, and with my day to day life. There’s so much going on, I don’t want to miss any of it.